Long time no see
Been a hot minute since I've updated here. Things have been messy.
So the bloodwork from my last update never happened, because I had an absolutely debilitating migraine when I woke up and had to cancel it. Still haven't gotten to reschedule it because things are very busy at the moment.
Close relative I'm living with had surgery, and I've effectively been a nurse for almost a month. I was already a caretaker for them, but it's more frequent now since they can't move much at all. There's supposed to be some nurses coming to do physical therapy, but they've been no-shows so far. The daily migraines have been just as relentless as always, and medication working is a gamble.
Speaking of medication, my psychiatrist put me on one that would have possibly killed me had I continued it without looking into it when I started having severe side effects. I have an appointment with her soon, but that's going to be quite the news to her, to say the least. I thankfully only took half-doses for three days, but the side effects I started having were eerily familiar, and I quickly realized it was because I'd experienced them before my tonic-clonic seizure back in 2022 and had been having absence seizures that I was mistaking for dissociation. Really glad I noticed quickly enough, because if that low of a dose was giving me that severe of side effects, I probably could have died had I increased it as instructed.
On top of all this, I've been stressed over the rest of the world. I worry about my friends and family who are struggling. I worry about the environment and climate change. I worry about politics. I worry about everything. Humans weren't meant to worry this much at one time. We weren't meant to be this aware of everything horrible taking place every second. We weren't meant to hear the words of evil people every day.
I'll never let go of hope, though. That's what evil wants. I'll always hold on for what I love.
Sure as hell hope things improve at least a little bit soon, though. Jeez.